FAFAFA-FAAAYAH-MAN.

I was never really the " i love a man in a uniform" typppa female. But gahhhh damn. Mmmmmph, my oh my. Tell me why i seen a sessssy ass fireman today; I tried to be generous and share the eyecandy with the whole world, except that nigga was doin his job & kept movin too fast for me to capture a clear picutre. PLUS i was not tryna to look like no PSYCHOASS bitch taking a picture of some stranger on my phone. I got a snapshot of his whipp thougggh ;] 

It was a chillassss day at work, like any other friday. Budget cut this, Budget cut that, Great Depression Part 2 though? Hmmmph, im callin it ... but hopefully im wrong. Oh and if your 21... " support C-Webb at Centercourt this whole week, but ESPECIALLY on Feb. 5 since its Lady's night" i Quote from our Mayor, Kevin Johnson :] yawwwwp, for all of you who isnt up on your political game our mayor is a ballll-er. Literally.   

After work i plannnnnnned on buying some shit for my hair, cause im in need of a new color. But my Grandma called me & told me to come home ASAP to come home to this cutie ... 

.. he fell into the pool today , when him and Spike we chasing squirrles in the backyard & so i had to come home to giveee him a bath. Poor MAC was wrapped in a towel, fahhh-reeezing waiting for mama to give him a warmass bath. ( His fit is cute huh? " Thanks pa-puhhh for making me gay and buying me a juiceyfit, i still love it though!"--MAC hahah ) 

MAC when I first got him. AKA LEROY.... yes motherfuckin Leroy. Haha thats what the breeders named him. Best believe i changed that in a quickness. " Louie Mac Weezy" :] Tell me he isnt the cutest you've ever seen though, i missss him being that small, but then again it was lightweight scary cause i could never let him walk around the house cause someone would end up steppin on his lil 1 Lb body. Hes a whole 3 Lbs now though! YAY. 

Its 9PM on a Friday night, time tah find somethin tahhhhh do ;] Ill be nice & leave you some pics from last weekend @ Liz's kickbaccck. :) 

Still sober, cause im still smiling with Lizbaybeeh. 

Silly goooooooose. 

Lightweight buzzed, cause im still smiling a jussssst a lil. 

No lie, those fudgebars were HELLLLLLLLLA GOOOD. 

MmmmHmmm. 

Puckered Lips, Red face, Allergies, No more smiles ... this is when you know im drunk :]

5AM finally called it a night. 

ITS OFFICIAL ...

school has taken over my life. "/ 

RAP VS. HIPHOP

sorry for the longass blog, got carried away with procrastinating with homework :) enjoy!

When it comes to relationships you can pretty much say ive been through hell & back. Ive been cheated it on, decieved, manipulated, catered to, loved, admired, & everything else in between. Ive cried to the point where i couldnt breath anymore because of laughing too hard ... & ive cried to the point where there were no more tears left to accompany my pain. There were days where i was completely inlove & days when i was completely out of it. Ive been through the good and the bad,the ups and the downs, the i cant get enough of you, you hangup first, i wanna see you every minute, of every hour, of everyday type shit ... & the damn nigga can i get my fucking space, stop blowin up my damn phone every 5 minutes, i dont wanna see your face, lets take a break type shit. Been through it, around it, under it, over it ....... you get the point. Ive seen love in all perspectives ... wait scratch that WE'VE seen it. & after 5 years you still my nigga, down as hell, wherever, whenever, together or not. & thats how love should be right?  

You dont gotta be a "couple" to be in love. you dont gotta be my man, & i dont gotta be your girl, to show our love for one another. But at the end of the day we both already know who got each others hearts. You do your thing & i do mines. Its how we rolllllllll right? Its how its always been, for the last 3 years. & I appreciate every damn thannnng you do for me. everything. Me & you, we on a whole different level that no one will ever understand or ever comprehend, thats why we here, still strong as ever. But we aint even together, so whats so strong about it? i know, ironic. but you feeeeel me though right?! yawwwwp, i thought so. thats all that matters :) 

Theres so many niggggas, so many boys, so many succckas, so many playyas, where all the men at though? Real talk. A day doesnt go by where i dont hear about a nigga doin his girl hella dirrrrrty, & honestly its no suprise cause its always been that way. & Nah im not categorizing ALL GUYS, but the ones who doin the dirrrrrty, you know who you are. I love the women in my life like no other, & im happy that a good amount of them are happy. But theres a few that deserves more then what they got, but then again a girls true soulmate is her girls right?!  Im just sayin that there aint enough men out there whos gunna treat thier women the right way, alllllllla buncha wanna be PEE EYEE EMM PEEEES. 

oh & WHAT THE FUCK IS UP with all these nigggas preachin about how they want a wifey one time. & once they find one .... they run to a mothefucken HOE. its the most craziest, stupidest, & funniest shit ive ever fucken heard of, and dont deny it cause yall know im right. 

& speeakin of hoes, FAHHHHH-REEEEEEEEEEEEE! haha. They part of the problem, a bigass parrrrrrt. DIRTYGIRLS cant seem to step off a nigga who already got girl. Damn imma update my WHOD I LIKE TO MEET on myspace... " a DG, so i can ask her what is it about a man who already got a girrrrl that you love oh so fucking much?" hahaha seriously though. Its all a little circle of bullshit.  Wifey wants a nigga, nigga wants a wifey, DG wants a nigga with a wifey.... awwww shit. Weed out the negative, thats all i gotta say. 

"there is a difference between interest and commitment. When you're interested in doing something, you do it only when circumstances permit. When you're committed to something, you accept no excuses, just results."

It can all be so simple, but the truth of the matter is ... you both have to want it, whole heartedly ... we're young and you still wanna do your thannnng & have fun? yawwwwp your fucking right. Dont commit yourself to one person if you know your ass cant stay true, simple as that. But you love them too much to leave them? How bout love them enough to save them the pain & the tears. Theres a difference between loving & being IN love. LOVING someone you start to realize things & start to discover your ture self, whereas when you fall IN LOVE you lose yourself in the other person & nothing and no one else matters except the two of you. In simpler terms, the difference between rap and hiphop is like love and being in love, because rap is just a word.

Latif - I dont wanna hurt you; throwbaccccck but get on his hyppppe. 

RAIN RAIN GO AWAY ...

come again another daaay puh-leassssse! if you know me well, you know that i get cold in a quiccckness. i always got some type of blanket with me ... in my car, the " family car ", the living room, & yupppp even one at work. Cause you already know when the coldness hits my skin its a done deal, you gunna hear me whine about it till theres no end, so bring a blanket when you see me! =) i hatteeeee the cold, no doubt. where you at sunshineeee?! come out come out where ever you are... 

damn i miss summer dayssssss ... 

...& nightss.

*ANYWAYS on a wholeeeee different note... 

Prenatal vitamins. Am i taking them? YESSSSSSIR. Am i Pregnant? Nah, go kick rocks if you thinkin that way. I just need an extra boooost of vitamins in my system cause i swear my hair is thining out & prenatal vitamins is more then enougggh (Plus my doctor recommended it). but  APPARENTLY buying some Prenatals at Target gave me more then just extra essentials; more like unwanted attention. I swear people these days cant mind theyre own businessssss real talk. Tell me why i was paying for them and once the oldasswrinkled lady scanned the prenatals she hella gave me a look, an expression i cant describe in words ... but it did make me lightweight uncomfortable. She looked at me & i looked right back, but there were no words exchanged, but then she kept glimpsing at my stomach, ovbiously trying to be hella slick ... but you already know i notice EVERYTHING so dont even try. Tah cut the long story short i know what that bitch was thinking behind her thickass almost goggle lookin glasses and honestly i dont blame her, i meaaan i AM BUYING PRENATALS RIGHT?! Story gets better though, as the bitch keeps giving me " the look " ... i pay and get my shit & as im leaving the next customer comes up which is another oldwrinkled lady ... as im walking towards the door i over hear oldwrinkled lady #1  sayyy " KIDS THESE DAYS ... THEY NEED TO START BUYING CONDOMS" .... & i fucking quote each word. Bitch got the nerve. HAHA just cause her shit is all worn out, haha nahhhh just kidding im not tryna start anything with wrinkles cause im a lover, not a fighter :]. but my point is ... people need to stop judging from the surface, especially if you dont know jackshit about the person. What if i was buying that shit for my mom? sister? cousin? Bitch recognize. & if i WAS PREGNANT, AND WHAT? What if it was by choice. What if i was financially stabled, with a good education, & in a strong relationship. THEN WHAT? Wrinkles got the nerve though, you would think some old lady like her would know better from experience, but then again .... who am i tahh judge? 

Other than wrinkles #1 & #2 my day was alll goooooood babbby.

CHAAAA-CHINGGGG.

bigwords.com = lifesaver. 

i bought my books yesterday at school spent $580 on 4 motherfuckin books. 

I went home and went on bigwords.com and just typed in the ISBN number of the books on the back & got a steaaaal on ALL my books, plus i went on retailmenot.com & got coupons for my books. helll yessss! tryna save every penny on them damn books. i rather spend it on things i want :) ... nah but real talk at the end of it all i saved $298.56 exactlyyyyy. & if you got your books already its not too late! just return them before the deadline and you'll get your full refund, trust me its worth it. Just thought id let you guys know :)

red, white & Barack

Its official, America has its first black president. & if your against him? suck it up and live with it cause you cant do shit about it now, hes sworn in and readddy tah make change babbbbbby! Literally history in the making ...

SUPPPPPPPP 09'

yawwwp im 10 days late. & ive lightweight been MIA this whole entire break, but i promise i got a good reason :] 

sooo finally a new year, new faces, new personalities, new slapppps, new trends, new job, new EVERYTHING, but sameeee oldddd paula. 

Real talk, i dont get why people gotta wait a whole damn year to change their ways, to improve themselves, to stop bad habits & begin good ones. it doesnt make any sense to me, everyone is just infatuated by the words "NEW YEARS RESOLUTION" how bout try new day resolution? Better yourself daily, take your shit step by step, & learn from it. eliminate whatevers holding you down TAHHHHDAY succcka. Why wait 365 days to improve your swaggg? 

& HONESTLY be real to yourself for a quick minute and ask your self what your 08 resolution was. Bet you all my casssh half of you succckas, dont even remember what the fuck it was, yet alone if you ACCOMPLISHED it.

The human brain is impossible to understand, but what i do know is that im changing daily, for the better & if the worst comes;; Then it comes. ill take the good with the bad, cause its the baddd times that make the good times so ma`fuccccccken gooooooooooood.

*RECAP OF WINTER BREAAAAAK.