TICKLE ME...

ELMOOOOOO.

You already know, another birthday in the Fam, im tellin you its never ending ... But lemme tell you those cupcakes were HELLLLLLA GOOOOD. REDVELVET MMMmMmM :)
It was Jonah's 2nd birthday. Went to Natomas to go celebrate it with the Famsss, as usual everyone was there. & if you look closely his candle is pretty cracckin, i wish they made shit like that when i was younger, i guess you can keeeeep re-usin it till you 21. 
Birthday boy, gettin frustrated cause he didnt want anymore pictures. 
HAHA, this smile always gets me; its the " can i please play taptap on the iPhone" smile. 

" oh hell no bitch, you took him to the bathroom" - jem. 
cutessssssssssy.
Some of the boyssss.
Out numbered by dicks that night, but we still say FUCK YOU :) (missing the ates) 

WOW all i gotta say niggggas are stupid at times so a BIG FUCK YOU TO YOU GUYS, HAHA just kidddddddding :) We was havin some real heart to heart that night, in some randomass room in Tita Luisa's house not knowin that we were layin in someone's bed. Hahah. From the literally 30 missed calls to the paragrpahLONGGGG text messages, its a good thing we were with one another that night to keep each other calm... kinda. hahah :) 

Other then stupid nigggas, the night was coo, the food was goooood, & quality time with my cousin was craccckin. 

REMINISCE.

Went to my old middle schoool for my babbbbby brothers award ceremony. DAMN i felt old, i felt even older when i saw my old teachers with some grey hair & some that can barely walk anymore. The school got upgraded though ... why couldnt they have an elevator when i went there? the fucckkk. Anyways my babbybro got on the honors despite all the parent meetings and phone call homes cause of his bigass mouth, no doubt that the kiddddd got brains. :) 

CLOSE YOUR EYES & OPEN YOUR MIND.

We had this exercise to do in one of my psychology classes that i thought was interesting enough to share with the world; " Write three anonymous statements, intended to different or the same people, things that you've always wanted to let someone know, but never did." 

1.

... pleasepleaseplealsepuhhhhhlease learn to get a mind of your own. One day you think this about a person and the next day you think that. All because of influences of other people. ITS DRIVING ME NUTS! well not really, but sometimes it annoys me & i do wanna tell you how it is, but there comes a point when i just gotta let you do you feelme? I tell you on a daily because i try to be a good friend & i want you to have an open mind, & be ready for the motherfucken worrrrrrld. Maybe i dont tell you DIRECTLY but if you read between the lines... babbbbbbby trust me i tell you. Dont judge too early, matter fact dont judge PERIOD. People got reasons for the things they do, reasons that are beyond your train of thought. 

2.

Dear you, 

I dont know how it ever came to this. How YOU ever got like this, when i was younger you were always my savior, my hero, the rock that held the family together. In my eyes you were superman. But as i grew older, our relationship grew apart to THIS ... whatever you wanna call this. I know your hurting, no matter how much you wanna deny it. I know. I hate seeing you like this, i wanna help you in any way that i can ... but the thing is you wont let me... infact you wont let ANYONE help you, not even yourself. Sometimes i cant help but be so mad at you. Your selfish as fuck, to let yourself go the way you did. What about us? You didnt think about that did you? Probably not, because your too caught up in feeling sorry for yourself. I hope and pray that one day, when its NOT TOO LATE, that you realize... Realize that this family still needs you. 

3.

Thankyou for accepting ALL of me, including my faults and imperfections. Thankyou for understanding when there was nothing left to understand, for not letting go, when there was nothing left to hold on to, & thankyou for staying...when i walked away. I love you with everything that i have. 

MHMMMMmM, i feel better :)

BIRTHDAYS GALORE.

Apologies for not keeping up with this blog. Work & school has pretty much occupied my time ... but dont trippppp chocolate chip, you didnt really miss much. Just a bunch of birthdays and fam parties to the MAXXX! I swear its always someones birthday in our family ... jem & i figured out that we have atleast 1 birthday every month of the year (not including my moms side which is another 239872138heads). And knowing our fam ... we dont miss ANYONES birthday; no matter how old or young you are. 

Birthday boy blowing the BOMBASS cake. Mmhmm strawberries :)

ohhh shit, vocals?!

Birthday girrrl & cutieepatoootie. 

Ate Carolyn's birthday, cept the little ones took turns blowing her cake out for her :)

" smile first, then you can play TAPTAP on the iphone ... " Obvious who wanted to play. 

Dads 51st birthday. We kept it legit and simple with a family dinner, my mom&i cooked some bombaass food. I cashed out on a bluetoooth for daddd & 2twenty packs of redbull since he stayyyys drinkin that. But damn redbull is a grippppp, thats why i stay drinkin my wataaaah at ALL TIMES! 

MAC's FIRST birthday ;) 

Went to the ayebaybay, for jem's bday. 

I SEE CAKES ...  (look closely)hahah fucking JR. yaaanasty.

got it craccckin in the citttty for her bdaaay! ;) 

awww you nasty lovebirds. the couch, their homes for the night, you motherfucccccckas! haha. 

ON ANOTHER NOTE schools been a bitch! Test every week, quizzes everyday, homework till i cant think straight ... NOT CRACCKIN. Someone gimme a kitkat cause i need a motherfucken break. SPRING BREAK IS LOOKIN PRETTY DAMN GOOOOOOOOD. :) GOODBYE SACRAAAAMENTO, & hellllo LA?SD?MIAMI? juicccced.